I apologize for being so absent the past few weeks, but a lot has been going on in the month of August that has distracted me from writing. I promise to keep updating more frequently and not to abandon this precious online blog again.
Recently I've found myself reminiscing over the previous years of my life. I have overcome so much, yet fallen behind in some cases. I do know that I am approaching that stage where I'm trying to find myself as an individual and to try and forget the person I once used to be. The first picture that is posted up there was taken when I was 15 years old at the beginning of my Sophomore year of Highschool. That entire year taught me things that I am still to this day learning how to forgive. If anything, I experienced two life changing events that would carry me to this moment right now. I recently just experienced my third one last month. I remember when we were all in 9th grade and we were the first class to be in the Freshman Academy and one of the history teachers gave a speech to us in the gym. He told us to look to our right, and then to our left at the people beside us. I remember we all gave each other goofy smiles, not even expecting to hear the next few words he would say to us. He told us that there was a possibility that we would grow apart from these people, a few would drop out or move far away, and God forbid it, but some of us could face death in our highschool years. We were only 14 and 15 at the time though, so of course we took his wisdom lightly. As I grew through highschool, however, I did loose a few friends and gained a few more. I will say that I never personally lost a friend, but I know people who have and have faced death themselves. These real life situations were still so surreal to me at the time that I never really wanted to admit myself to them. I wanted to bury my head under my covers and hide from the monsters of the real world when some of the monsters were people I trusted and tried to find comfort in. It's amazing how people change over a certain amount of time and how you truly discover who your friends are as you progress into college.
So much has gone on in so little time, but I'm starting to feel normal again. I'm also starting to realize just how much certain people mean to me in my life. If anything, Brandon has been more to me than just my boyfriend. I never once thought it was capable to be best friends with someone you were intimate with; like it was a whole separate concept of relationships. He has taught me more about friendship than anyone in my entire life, and has compassionately stood by my side and loved me far more than I could ever imagine. It's the little things that he does that reminds me of how much he loves me and cares for me and those thoughts indeed bring the most comfort in times when I'm feeling sorrowful.
As I've previously stated before, August was a hard month for me. I had to overcome some emotional issues that involved watching all of my friends leave for college, plus a number of personal events that took place with the whole 'moving forward' process in my life. I am choosing to lean on God for most of these matters now and to not worry so much about the things I cannot control.
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In other news to this, Brandon and I get to see MUTEMATH this Thursday and I AM BEYOND EXCITED! It will be my first real concert seeing a band that I absolutely adore, so as you can imagine I'm flipping out! We got V.I.P packages too that came with a shirt, a ticket to the show, their new cd (that comes out October 4th, AND you can totally pre-order it now on i-tunes) plus a bonus song! We are beyond pumped for this and yes there will be lots of pictures and hopefully some videos to share! I will totally be updating on this more though!
I wanted to end this blog on a happy note though because despite how last month turned out, September is starting to look pretty snazzy. I am really excited for all that God has planned for me and I cannot wait to start looking at the next school I plan to attend! I hope everyone has a fabulous Labor Day weekend and week!
xoxo
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