the weight of stress.

I'm pretty good at stressing myself to death for some reason. It could be something really little too, but yet if it affects me in any kind of way, it hits me hard emotionally. I start thinking about it before I go to sleep at night and then it moves on to some tears and frustration and then I take it out on those who I love. If you're wondering why I'm stressed or how I could even possibly be stressed to begin with since it's summer, I'll tell you straight up that I'm terrified about school. I don't want to go to Greenville Tech really, and now I'm starting to doubt myself on what I want to do with my life. As you all know, photography is a huge passion of mine. For about a year or so I decided on fashion photography as my career choice. When my Senior year at Byrnes rolled around I still kept the same thought. However, I then started to think about the other options I could go for as a photographer. I never had it in me to do weddings or anything in that category because I've heard a lot more cons than I have pros on the matter. But a few months ago I was browsing along the internet until I came across this beautiful couple who did weddings in the exact same style of photography that I love. Their names are Andrew and Carissa Gallo and they're based in Washington, D.C. I was instantly floored by their work and that's when I realized that I didn't have to do the standard 'Wedding' photography you normally see. There are people who do actually have the same taste as I do, however, I'm not sure how big the clientele is. Once I saw this beautiful work though, I seriously started to doubt fashion photography. A few weeks ago I was asked by one of my good friend's mom if I would be willing to take some photos for a local consignment shop in Spartanburg called, "OOPS!" I definitely took up the offer, but I then began to learn a lot about fashion and how a clothing store works. Honestly, I wasn't expecting half of what I got out of it, and now I'm more prepared for the next shoot. It was still a fun experience though and I got to work with two of my best friends, of whom who were excellent models. :)

I'm not sure what I'll be doing later on in life and what school I'll end up transferring to. In the end I just want to wrap my head around something else and not worry about my back to school date.

But I want to thank my wonderful, sweet boyfriend for being there for me last night. I definitely used his shoulder to cry on via skype and he patiently listened and knew what to say. Even if he was half dead from spending all day at the beach with his family hehe... I love you very much honey!