the social network of absolute distraction.

It is late. It is way too late to be writing a blog post about this. I have something on my mind though that I can't help but spill it out here. Brandon decided to delete his facebook this evening and for some reason I have been compelled to do the same. The only reason why I keep a facebook is so I can obviously connect with friends, and when business is booming I advertise my photography business; however, with my current situation in college, I'm wondering if having a facebook is even really worth it anymore. I see the same, boring statuses every day. I post the same, boring statuses, and really... I only like to keep it to post my photographs. I always wanted to be the bigger person of myself though and delete my special online profile as I did several years ago with my myspace, but facebook has kept me locked in for too long and I think I actually want to wrestle that demon.

I'm taking a tour of the art department at Clemson next week, and needless to say I am both nervous and excited to learn how I can prepare for the rest of my freshman year in order to transfer. Not only to there, but some other schools as well. Granted Clemson is top on my list, I'm still considering others. The thing is though is that I can't go anywhere if I don't do good this year.

The point is. Do I want a social life, or do I want good grades? I want to challenge myself into doing something sporadic... something I've never done before or had the courage to do. I want to get rid of my facebook for at least a week and see how I can handle it before I crack. I want to detox myself of my social life and start working on the things that matter: My relationship with God, my friends, and my boyfriend.

summer song.

My parents and I had originally planned a trip to a flea market in Asheville, North Carolina, this past Saturday, but unfortunately we got to the flea market way to late and therefore did not stay long. However, I had the grand idea to visit the Biltmore Estate seeing as we were very close to it. I hadn't been in about a year and I brought my camera with me for some awesome photo opportunities. When I was little I always adored going there. I loved pretending to be a high aristocratic woman with my best friend in our british accents, prancing around as if we owned the place. It certainly is a magical house. This time I found the gardens to be my favorite part. So many pretty flowers and amazing photo opportunities. I wish Brandon and I could go and take pictures there... but the prices are outrageous. Thank god I still pass for 16 :P

Sooo nothing new has been going on really. Although I will admit I've been a little emotionally hurt lately (the joys of being a girl) I'm not sure why either. I'm usually always happy, always friendly, always in a really good mood... but I've been dreading my back to school date, the future, my classes, and pretty much everything revolving around school. Also, my faith has been having it's ups and downs. I haven't been to a church service in a while and it's partly because I sleep in very late. I also haven't been discipled in a while, but life has been getting in the way for me and my mentor. I feel like God is trying to tell me something as well... I'm just not sure how to answer Him/speak to Him about it. I do request prayer from those of you who read this though.

Hopefully I'll see brighter days. I hope you all have a wonderful rest of the week. xoxo

it's been one of those days

where prayer and food are the only things you can rely on. i'm sleep deprived and i really miss brandon. a lot.

picture source.